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Again // Not The One
03:52
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I think I've done it again,
And I know that I do this to myself.
I go overboard with all the fantasizing,
And now I've decided on you.
Now the moments I can get a taste of your attention
Make every other moment taste devoid of any flavor.
And when you turn away it's like the sun stops shining on me.
So here I am in hiding, 'cause I can't risk confiding in you.
It's easier behind this petty masquerade mask
That does a shoddy job of covering the truth.
Will I ever love again?
Or have I ever really loved at all?
Maybe what I've fooled myself for love is just repression, fear of loss,
And a sense of misplaced trust.
Either way, I'm crazy about you,
But every step I take feels like a step in the wrong direction.
I want you to live your best life, be your best self,
And come home to me.
So here I am in hiding, 'cause I can't risk confiding in you.
It's easier behind this petty masquerade mask
That does a shoddy job of covering the truth.
Don't think I'm ready for a new love.
Can't seem to get it right.
And I'm afraid of losing you, love.
But you were never mine.
I think I've done it again.
I think I've done it again.
I think I've done it again.
I think I've done it again.
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Don't know why I am so hung up. You're not the one.
Don't know how I fell so in love. You're not the one.
You're not the one.
You're not the one for me.
You're not the one.
Now it's so plain to see.
Don't know how I got so hung up. You're not the one.
Don't know why I am so in love. You're not the one.
You're not the one.
You're not the one.
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2. |
Ego Trap
04:47
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I forced your hand. You had to fold.
I tried to force a reaction. I lost control.
I'd created a fixture for you in my mind.
But, I couldn't get you to fit the mold this time.
I was certain I was loving you.
I was in love with the idea.
I was so sure that I'd be strong and true,
But I gave into the fear.
I think a part of me wants you to feel like you're nothing without me.
I need someone so co-dependent that they never wanna leave.
I wanna get you all alone so you don't want nobody else.
Make you believe a life without me would just be a living hell.
I'm still so caught up in myself.
I'm still so caught up in myself.
The cycle made its rounds with a quickness.
And I know that I probably shouldn't hit this.
But maybe it has helped me to bear witness, or forget this.
But I'd be lying if I said I get this.
I was certain I was loving you.
I was in love with the idea.
I was so sure that I'd be strong and true,
But I gave into the fear.
I think a part of me wants you to feel like you're nothing without me.
I need someone so co-dependent that they never wanna leave.
I wanna get you all alone so you don't want nobody else.
Make you believe a life without me would just be a living hell.
I'm still so caught up in myself.
Oh, Lord.
I'm still so caught up in myself.
I'm still so caught up in myself.
Oh, Lord.
I'm still so caught up in myself.
This time around hurt just as bad.
And I somehow got this idea in my head
That I was under attack.
My paranoid ego is fighting back.
I was certain I was loving you.
I was in love with the idea.
I was so sure that I'd be strong and true,
But I gave into the fear.
I think a part of me wants you to feel like you're nothing without me.
I need someone so co-dependent that they never wanna leave.
I wanna get you all alone so you don't want nobody else.
Make you believe a life without me would just be a living hell.
I'm still so caught up in myself.
Oh, Lord.
I'm still so caught up in myself.
I'm still so caught up in my--caught up in myself.
I'm still so caught up in myself.
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3. |
Insane
03:59
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What the hell?
There's something wrong with me
and I can't tell, oh
It's always something I can feel but I can never see
Tick tock, there goes the clock
and I'm all dressed up
Just want what I already got
Fuck
Chances are I'll never stop to see I'll never stop
But here I go right through the motions that I know and oh
Don't think I'll ever stop
Oh I
Can't explain myself at all
to save my life
to save what's left of my soul
and I
I can't save myself from me
these days it seems
I'd rather be insane
than nothing at all
The doctors say
Sit back and take a pill to make it all go away
numb yourself, oh
Nobody wants to feel the pain it's caused by somebody else
and damn, I gotta say
I've been thinking these thoughts about every day
and I
I just don't don't know
If today's the day I finally let the thought of you go, oh oh
So here I go into the ocean nice and slow and oh
Don't think I'll ever know
Oh I
Can't explain myself at all
to save my life
to save what's left of my soul
and I
I can't save myself from me
these days it seems
I'd rather be insane
than nothing at all
Is it true?
Have I become
what I feared I might be all along?
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4. |
Magick
03:09
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I just wanted to write a couple of lines.
Something clever, something new, something fun
Where I dare you
To believe in the truth.
And it's time after time after time after time after time
After you.
It'd be new.
It'd be just like magick.
It'd be so wild.
It would travel in time.
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Of all the things I can't let go
It's love, my love, the way I fall.
There are some things I'll never know.
Is there honor anymore?
Or is it all just fame and gold?
Of all the times when I was blind
It's love, my love, that was to blame.
There are some things still on my mind.
Is it justice or revenge?
Is it sacrifice or sin?
Oh, I ain't falling in love again
Til' I can trust this heart of mine.
Oh, I ain't falling in love again,
But I can't help myself.
I've tried.
Oh, I ain't falling in love again
Til' I can trust this heart of mine.
Oh, I ain't falling in love again,
But I can't help myself.
I've tried.
I've tried.
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6. |
It Might Be Love
04:42
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A familiar place
in a brand new day.
I never thought I'd change.
I never thought there was a way
Til' I saw you there
Sleeping on the floor.
I told a million lies, but never tried a truth before.
It's not like me to feel alive.
It doesn't seem quite right.
It might be love.
It might be love.
Yeah, the thing thought I'd never find.
And it might be love.
Walkin' down the street
Through the morning mist.
I can see your face,
But you don't know that I exist.
But it's all the same.
If you only knew
All the things I've done, and all the things that I would do,
They'd keep you up right through the night.
You might be terrified.
But it might be love.
It might be love.
Yeah, the thing thought I'd never find.
And it might be love.
I could steal your heart,
But I'd let it go.
After everything,
Now I think I finally know.
It's the same old game.
It's an endless sea.
Nothing stays the same, but you are you, and I am me.
I might as well just say goodbye
Before I change my mind.
Yeah, it might be love.
It might be love.
The only thing I thought I'd never find.
And it might be love.
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7. |
Minnesota Sycamore
04:13
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Some days I live.
Some days I don't.
I've got this pride I just can't swallow.
Some days I die.
Some days I sing.
Some days I just wait til' tomorrow.
Then I think of you.
Then I think of me.
Then I think of all the things I'd rather be.
The man beneath the sycamore tree.
Yeah, the man beneath the sycamore.
I used to lose.
At least I played.
These days, I don't believe in anything.
And I used to love.
It's just not the same.
Now I just wanna throw it all away.
Then I think of you.
Then I think of me.
Then I think of all the things I'd rather be.
The man beneath the sycamore tree.
Yeah, the man beneath the sycamore.
Someday I'll find my way back home.
That place where happy endings save my soul.
Someday I'll be alive and free.
Where I won't ever, ever have to know.
Then I'll think of you.
Then I'll think of me.
Then I'll think of all the things I'd rather be.
The man beneath the sycamore tree.
Yeah, the man beneath the sycamore tree.
Just the man beneath the sycamore tree.
Yeah, the Minnesota sycamore.
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8. |
Just Like Me
03:49
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I have lived my whole life, just like you.
I don't know if I can write about anything that I've ever wanted.
I don't know how to keep on going, but I'm on it.
I hope this letter finds you well.
I've done much better for myself.
I know if all of us had wealth, we'd be much better off.
I don't know how I keep my cool.
It seems like all of us, and you, wanna be better than the truth.
But it's not anything.
And you keep holding me down.
And I keep holding me down.
I keep my heart clutched to my chest, and you're just like me.
So afraid of what comes next.
I keep these feelings to myself, and you're just like me.
But the next move won't make itself.
I don't know who I think I am, just like you.
I don't know who I wanna be.
But I know that everything we've tried so far has failed.
And now I'm ready to try anything.
I know that all our plans have come to a halt.
And I just wanna scream, but not without all our friends.
Pretty soon, we'll be back outside.
We'll forget we weren't alive.
We'll be together, you and I.
I keep my heart clutched to my chest, and you're just like me.
So afraid of what comes next.
I keep these feelings to myself, and you're just like me.
But the next move won't make itself.
And all my time could be used much better.
And maybe if I tried, I could get much better.
And you're just like me.
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9. |
Letter You Find
03:11
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Is it only today? Or is it more of the same?
The light up ahead got lost on the way.
This is the goodbye.
This the last time.
This is the letter you find.
This is a beautiful life.
This is the last time before miles and miles of headlights.
I'm praying to a god I don't believe in.
I'm hoping for a world that I've lost faith in.
I'm crying out to the stars that hide at night
That this is goodbye.
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10. |
Sleep
04:08
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Maybe I'll drift off to sleep.
Maybe I'll drift off to sleep.
Put the key in the ignition and turn it.
Put the tube in the window with tape so it don't escape.
Then I'll just drift off to sleep.
Then I'll just drift off to sleep.
Whenever they ask me if I have a plan, I lie.
You're god damn right I have a plan.
My plan is to die.
Maybe I'll drift off to sleep.
Maybe I'll drift off to sleep.
I don't have a lot of words that I'd like to say anymore.
Everything seems a little pointless when I know it falls on deaf ears.
So maybe I'll call it a life, and hang up my hat, and have a good night.
Smoke a big bowl, and get really high.
And then I'll just drift off to sleep.
God, I just wanna drift off to sleep.
Maybe I'll drift off to sleep.
Maybe I should just drift off to sleep.
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Our New Autumn Saint Paul, Minnesota
Our New Autumn is a two-piece indie band from St. Paul, MN formed in 2020 and consisting of singer-songwriters and multi-instrumentalist Luke Moore and Taylor Weston. They combine elements of romantic emo with a new age indie folk sound.
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